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Sons Grow, Fathers Don’t (except in circumference)

Thursday, November 9th, 2017

He must increase but I must decrease.

That moment of realisation that things really have changed: when your son passes on his out-grown clothes – to you! My sock drawer has now been filled with all the socks my 16-year-old son, Theo, has got too big to wear.

The Unexpected Relief of Fatherhood

Thursday, March 7th, 2013

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Of all the deep joys that fatherhood brings, perhaps the most unexpected but the most beneficial for me has been the final, definitive permission to not put myself at the centre of everything. As a teenager and for far too many years as an adult, what I wanted – my hopes, ambitions, desires – were at the centre of who I was and, not to put too fine a point upon it, I was beginning to bore myself to tears. Middle-aged teens are ridiculous in many ways, but in none more so than in their self obsession. Having children meant, finally, that my own desires, ambitions and hopes, the whole question of who am I, no longer really mattered, and what an unexpected, joyous release that has been.

So, thank you, Theo and Matthew. You’ve been the making of me.